the sun is rising -- maybe it's just a dark/brown/purple/red at the moment- but it's rising as i leave work.

btdubs-- i'm on 5 shifts this week. guess my title is actually 'full time baker.'

I can't complain b/c it's a full time job. But in reference to P. Andrew's sermon this past Sunday, definitely an interesting plot twist.

In honesty though-- I like it so far.

Estraaaada

I'm not a fan of burger king, but I like this ad a lot for some reason.

When I was younger... my little sister and I would rush to get ready in the morning so we could watch CHiPs reruns before school. Sick days= a FULL episode, plus sometimes the Adventures of Batman and Robin on FX. (we didn't watch a lot of tv as kids... but looking back... we had weird taste.)

On snow days we got to watch Murder She Wrote. Cuz it was on at noon- 2 episodes together with the sisters and mom- and usually hot chocolate :)

I don't know why I felt the need to share this.. but since I've been jobless, I've had a lot more time to watch tv- so maybe it's on my mind more.

Speaking of lately-- been watching a lot of Criminal Minds. Goood show.

and that's about the most exciting part of my day-> occasional Estrada sightings and marathons of crime dramas.

aka I need a job. If only for the sake of my eyesight.

I have been absent from this blog for almost three months-- through missions, home, countless emo days, and fun new adventures in single adult-ness and job searching.

I'll try not to go three more months without comment. :)

Mom- I never understood why you didn't like driving through car washes. I always thought it was the water jets.... (maybe it was?) But after my first time on my own... I'll just say I'm glad no one saw me pulling forward and backing up--- totally convinced I had broken the machine.

Lord- I am a sinner and You are perfect. And yet, I see how long this road is too humility before You. I told myself it was shameful to make up reasons I didn't have a job when I talked to my family; when I knew in my heart my answer was: I'm waiting for God's perfect timing. When He wants me to have a job, I'll have one.

And thank you Lord, that in the midst of a complaining heart, You used my sinful tongue to share that truth with the one person I think believes it the least. And you gave me an interview.

Whether or not I get the job, thank you for humility. And teaching me to take the bends and breaks as they come- not brake too early and never hit them.


From Focus discussion:

C.S. Lewis- from The Four Loves
"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket-safe, dark, motionless, airless-it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell."