Mom- I never understood why you didn't like driving through car washes. I always thought it was the water jets.... (maybe it was?) But after my first time on my own... I'll just say I'm glad no one saw me pulling forward and backing up--- totally convinced I had broken the machine.

Lord- I am a sinner and You are perfect. And yet, I see how long this road is too humility before You. I told myself it was shameful to make up reasons I didn't have a job when I talked to my family; when I knew in my heart my answer was: I'm waiting for God's perfect timing. When He wants me to have a job, I'll have one.

And thank you Lord, that in the midst of a complaining heart, You used my sinful tongue to share that truth with the one person I think believes it the least. And you gave me an interview.

Whether or not I get the job, thank you for humility. And teaching me to take the bends and breaks as they come- not brake too early and never hit them.


From Focus discussion:

C.S. Lewis- from The Four Loves
"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket-safe, dark, motionless, airless-it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell."