I told myself I wouldn't do any updating until my research papers were finished, especially considering they're due in 15 hours... but I'm taking a break and sick of looking at facebook (i also told myself I wouldn't be playing any computer games during my breaks, so that narrows the options a lot...)

I desperately need to do laundry. It's getting bad...

Also, I don't really know where I'm at emotionally speaking right now. I had a really nasty couple days last week, and spent most of the weekend being angry at everyone and everything. I have to say that anger is still hanging on a bit, but it's mixed with something between apathy and what I can only describe as concession...

it's a weird state. and doesn't make writing research papers all that easy... but at least I am not stressed out over the fact this might be the most b.s'd paper i've ever written.... because I really am only doing it to appease people. There is part of me that would like to see what would happen if I didn't write it all.... but that might just be laziness. or malicious intent to draw attention? i'm not a psychologist.

kk- back to paper. pretending i actually know anything about my family history....